i decidEd tO chaNge my bLog to diaryLanD and back to bLog again.. so these entries are frm diaryland!hAHha.. cos oF no reasON..haha.. LaMEs.. *bLEahs* YAr.. i wEnt foR baNd prac toDay.. and cHAnGed my saxo~ sO cOoL lEhs! hah.. wElL.. as usuaL.. i am super dOWn.. 1 whoLe week le.. since i saW him at thE coNCert.. i cant heLp but feeL more sad.. saddEr.. sinking deeper into the ocean.. w/o hIM kNOwing. hE wuN nOe.. fOrEvEr.. i hoPE.. my friEnds are teLling to gEt oUt of thIs.. hOW can i? LalalA.. singing to myseLf everydAY... tRying hard to foRget hiM.. bUt fINding it hard to.. hOW? heLP! i wannA cRy.. bUt i caNt.. its nOT woRth.. i tell myseLf.. bUT.. i duNnO.. why am i so stUpid to faLL for a gUy like hiM?! thIngs wiLL get beTTer i hOPe.. i reaLLy hOpe..........

*i wish he kNew.. bUt i nOe. he will nv nv nv nOE abT it.. neveR..*