yEs i nOE.. LifE sLd go oN eVen if i faIL mY CT noW. wth. i realLy diD pUt in The eFForts go sTudy.. bUt all thE timE my results will End uP a F. OK. VeRy Gd. i DuNNo wad To dO le. sErioUsLy. mAyBe i ReaLLy hAd cHOsEn thE wRoNg pAth to go. PTM really realLy realLy sUck? my gOd. aLL thE tcHers SAy dAt i Am so quiet. hmm.. like as if i am arhz.. bUt wHen i HAvE nUTting to ask thEm.. wad dO thEy waN mE to asK! i mean.. wTh.. AzMi can sAY i pLay a fooL in his tut class.. vEry fUnNy. i dun evEn cOpy hW lOhs. okok.. mAyBe soMEtiMes.. bUt.. i listen to hIm whEn he talk wad. PlAY A FOOL. yar. sHall start to plAy a fooL LOhs. hAIz.. lifE is gEtTing tOugh.. shIt MAn.. i dunno lar.. mY pArents told me to consider poLy le.. mAybE i sLd hAd put poLy as My 1st choice lar... den i nO nitto suffer so much in sch.. dEn i wuN mEet YOU! tmD. ok. thIs is gETting nO where. sHouLd i stOp? u bEtter telL mE. i wilL die. yEs i will.... bUT i thInk.. eVEn if i do.. u wun noe.. cos U dUnNo i am talking aBt u. oKok... gEtting out of hAnd. suffering frm so internal conflict within myself.. whY is thIS hapPening to mE. WhY! i tot lIfe is fUlL oF chOices.. but whY do i alWays choose the WRong thIng to dO! wtH. i hAtE mYself. i hAtE mYselF. yEs.. i really Do.