ayes.. still din get to talk to him.. so ended up reading magazine and listening to cd on bed.. can't get to slp arhs.. den was listening to jay's GUI JI.. its very nice.. and tink one of the line is very mean.. "ru gou sou fen shou is ku tong de qi dian, na zai zhong dian zhi qian wo yuan yi zai ai yi bian". so meaningful.. so sorrowful too.. cry a lil.. cos i was tinking abt him.. like DUHZ. of cos its him.. den whu else rite? tink i am mad.. mad woman on loose.. haha.. jay rocks..

Gng out later to countdown.. maybe i can take some time off my mind off him ya? haha.. yeahz.. wad if i bump into him later?! hhaa.. i wun la.. like.. why wld i bump into him?!

PHEW! Had a nightmare yday.. dreamt that the ger actually noe dat i like him and she came up to me and tell me to back off cos he wun like me. I was kinda blur.. cos was still wondering how the hell she noes abt this. Hmm.. den i woke up.. it seems so real.. and she has a sluty face too.. aye~ wth.. look like those drama serial.. those hu li jing.. like the "Hong Dou Nu Zhi Lian" by Zhang Na La.. aiyOhz~ tink hor.. i seriouly need to see doc liaoz.. like.. tink so much lohs.. tink some time next yr.. i will go crazy if i keep tinking abt him.. and somemore.. i hafta keep up with my sch work.. O MAN! Help me? He is now constantly in my mind... mus sing SHE's " Always on my mind" liaoz.. aye... getting out of point man.. like wth? How can i have a dream like dat?? Its quite impossible for HIM AND HER to noe rite?? hMm.. unless somebody leaked out my secret.. but sld be quite impossible also.. cos if wanna leak rite.. LONG AGO already leak liaoz lOhs.. like why wait till now rite?! hahaz... jus pray hard that it wun happen to me in real life.. or else i will cry.. CRY.. and commit sucide. YES.. Cos I like him.. more den i like anyone else.. more den i like myself.. jus like the song's title.. "Love Of My Life".. guess this song is dedicated to him.. and to me of cos.. sucha sweet song.. O God.. getting crazy.. -shakes head-

YAY! JUs reached home.. hee.. went for concert jus now at esplanade! haha.. wad a place! haha.. lotsa memories dere man.. esp during july! hahz.. Tonite is the "dunernite".. dunearn is the main band la.. crescent is the guest band! haha.. Can u imagine a band with 13 tbone players!? A lil mad arh! haha.. but overall for the 1st half hor.. it sounded VERY boring! haha.. really man.. its till the sax emsble den everyone lightened up! haha.. i am nt being mean la.. its really err.. bOring! haha.. den 2nd half.. CRESCENT came!! haha.. all of us were cheering!!! haha!!! Crescent rocks?! haha!! iF nt.. the hall will be so dead man! Crescent played Wind and Tree, Happy March, Fiefoerniek and I will Follow him! haha.. sounded gd.. and SM.. my dear jr.. she got 2 solos! haha.. and she stood up to play during one of her solo! its like.. WOAH! so proud of her man! hee.. Overall.. the concert is quite ok la.. heng i din buy the expensive ticket?! hahaa.. nt very worth.. hahaa!!!

Din wanna blog yday nite.. cos was quite bz.. talking to #jjcsb pple.. to weihan.. to eugene.. to chubang.. and my jie was rite beside me.. looking at every alphabet i am typing.. hahz.. rite.. dats why i dun wan to type out yday. Hee.. she keep complaining.. say wad.. err.. why my friends can see my blog and she can't?! hah.. of cos she can't la.. if she read le.. den i will be so paiseh.. cos u sld noe this blog is set up to write abt my life and everything.. and I dun often tell her abt my life man.. it will be too err.. embarrassing if she read le, rite?! haha.. But anyway.. on #jjcsb main.. we were trying to matchmake km and Jl. hahz.. this JL is supposedly mao+ting's friend la.. in SA de.. haha.. cos kM is really sad abt her dear MR CHAN.. dats why dey were trying to let her see her new path in life(nonsense). hahaz.. its so funny.. all of us can open matchmaking company liaoz! hah.. Quite crazy.. we keep saying dey very compatible! hahz.. Well.. but come to tink of it.. why nt?? Dere are nicer grass out dere yeah?? Maybe this JL is so much better den MR chAn! hahz!!!

aye.. was quite angry yday.. cos i tink he is away playing game.. den when i msg him.. he nv reply... so i tot.. ok.. its quite ok.. cos he always like dat de.. den finally at 1254am.. HE FINALLY REPLY. Guess i was over the moon or something.. but he told me he need to reboot his comp.. tell me he WILL come back de.. Rite.. den I see him coming back in irc le.. tot ok.. he come back le.. and i waited la! Stupid me.. and he never come back.. SO angry.. thanks for cheating me ok? I am a gullible ger.. easily contented ger.. O watever! I am feeling so cheated.. damn.. and i can't get to slp yday? Keep tinking of him.. OF HIM. Can u believe it? Viknes asked me a qn yday.. "I tot u already forget him liao?" Rite.. Yes.. i am trying.. TRYING.. and i failed.. reason is.. cos i see him again.. -shakes head- So fustrated with myself. Can't even handle such problems.

Me and WeiLin on SA concert day.. 1min after he say hi to me.



When You Say You Love Me - [[Clay Aiken]]

I've been watching you from afar
And the way you make your way around the bar
You laugh like you're really entertained
And you smile like it's your favorite game
Now you're moving closer to me
And our eyes connect emotionally
I'm not looking for a one-night stand
Or a place for a broken heart to mend

I know ev'rybody here wants to hold you
I know what it's like 'cause I feel the same
When you look in my eyes
There's a part of me that's still afraid

(Chorus:)
And when you say you love me, do you mean it?
Baby, when you hold me, do you feel it?
Should I believe the magic in your eyes?
I would wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me like you mean it
Baby, when you hold me, make me feel it
All I want to do is make you mine
I've been hurt way too many times

They say if you wanna make God laugh
Then all you gotta do is tell Him your plans
I know that the time's not right
Didn't know that I would meet you tonight

It's not that I don't really like the attention
I feel like the only man in the room
Are you really sincere?
Is this just something that you do?

(Repeat chorus)

(Bridge:)
Again and again and again
I've been hurt, my friend
'Til the end
You know I've been high, I've been low
I got no place left to go
Again and again and again
When will this search ever end?

(Chorus 2:)
And when you say you love me, do you mean it?
Baby, when you hold me, do you feel it?
Should I believe the magic in your eyes?
I would wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me like you mean it
Baby, when you hold me, make me feel it
All I want to do is make you mine
I would wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me

I am bOred.. yeahz.. totally bored.. woke up at 11am.. hee.. tink my dad din bother to wake me up lehs~ hahaz.. den i slp and slp.. slp and slp.. ayes.. den woke up at 11.. haha.. tink i was VERY tired yday.. cos woke up early ma.. den reach home at abt 7pm.. hahz.. din tell my dad dat i am gng for SA concert.. hahaz.. den i tell him i am in sch doing something.. aye..*naughty ger*. din wanna tell a lie la.. but din wan to explain too much lohs.. dats why.. ayes.. tink everyone really tink i went nuts.. really loh.. now dey see me arhss.. first thing dey say his "happy nt?!" hahz.. Well.. i am happy.. YET something is bugging me. Yday dat ger is sitting rite beside him.. guess u sld noe how i mite had felt dat dat pt of time. Its like.. i am feeling jealous.. but wad rite do i have to feel jealous? it's like.. err.. feeling jealous over nutting. And i noe she likes him.. hmm.. dunno la.. its me being paranoid.. yesh.. feeling really confused.. i tot i could had treated him like a friend.. yet when i see him.. i jus cld nt forget him face.. haiz.. stupid me...

I tink i will go crazy one day.. when i close my eyes.. his images will be dere.. o man~ wHy is this happening to me? Can't stand it le.. haiz~

tiNk ChubANg is mad.. haha.. seriously i tink he is..>.<

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HAPPY!!!!

haha!!!!!!!! LAIMENG is a happy ger today ya?? All thanks to owl though! haha.. okok... morning went for band~ haha.. was late.. cos i woke up late! haha.. anyway.. did nutting much la.. played a few pieces.. its back to those boring days again.. haha.. yeapz.. haha.. was crapping with viknes, joce and regina.. hah!! played with this consent form.. and i was into history.. haha!!! "LaiMeng's ROAD" hahaha!!! YAY!! haha.. yupz~ den went off to JP to eat lunchie b4 proceeding to sa.

yUpz~ den we reach sa.. haha.. hmm.. took a seat in front.. saw so many pple.. pple like my jrs.. haha.. annie, sm and so many more!! haha.. can't rem but yarhz.. haha.. was like.. woo.. so many crescentians!! haha.. Saw Hui Jun and Audrey.. haha.. yARhz.. den Xinyi! haha.. thanks for helping me buy the flowers man! haha.. yUPz.. den was sitting beside km and joce during the 1st half.. hahz.. u noe~ cos when i was sitting down.. audrey said hi to me.. den i turned back lohs.. den dat sec.. omg.. he appear in front of me! haHa.. its like.. totally unexpected. Really man.. its like.. "OMG!!??!!" hahah.. can't believe it man.. to tink he was actually sitting BEHIND me.. hah!!!!! Was telling Jade dey all.. haha. dey also can't believe it~ hahaz.. den 2nd half.. he was sitting at the front.. so its like.. his view is so clear?? was telling mao abt it.. haha.. i tink hoR.. mao dey all tink i went crazy le! haha.. den after the concert ended.. went to take pic with weilin only.. cos can't stay too long lahz.. the others gng le.. den.. when i was getting ready to take the pic.. weilin turned round to call him and intro. MY GOD. He got a shocked expression at 1st.. haha.. but he waved and said hi to me.. haha~ of cos i waved and say hi back rite?! hahaha.. aye~ magical moments.. magical days.. the day i will rememeber.. yEs.. my dear friend..

HEh~ jus reach home.. went church to celebrate ChrisTmas!!!! Hee.. its nt bad la.. but i tink last yr's one is better! hee.. last yr more re nao! haha.. yupz~ saw chubang again.. haha... he actually received salvation.. haha.. me and weiyan was like.. "WOW"?! haha.. was very shocked ya??? hahz.. yupz~ tml got band prac.. like yucks? hafta prepare for the orientation.. haiz!!!! hee hee.. saw lotsa new friends today!!! hahaa..

ayes.. shall update more tml.. hee hee.. very tired le.. haiz~ SLp earLY!!!

haha.. went out with Km and Joce to TbP this afternoon and reach my grandma's hse at around 5+ like dat cos its my grandma's bday.. den its like a tradition to go down to celebrate for her... aye.. sorry jing.. cos its a last min decision to go out with my friends la.. cos my mum say no need to go down so early=x .. heh~ but anyway.. bought this top and a pair of heels~ hhahaa.. spent like $52+ like dat.. but i like the top lehs~ though its black again! And my mum was like.. "tot u dun wan to buy black tops anymore?" hahaha.. I wanna go back to U2 to buy the shirt.. woO.. its nice.. sky blur colour! haha... I mus Buy! BEst Buy.. Must Buy!! haha.. hmm.. Km's temp rise again.. aiyoh.. dunno wads wrong with her man.. she told me its a viral infection.. hmm.. hope she will be ok by next friday yeah?? Take care ger!=)

Saw his prom nite pix.. he simply look gorgeous. haha.. but he keep saying himself ugly lohs.. dunno wads his prob.. haha.. he loook so.. omg!!!! haha.. his shirt and coat.. think he look fabulous in dem! hhaa.. omg omg! so nice.. so bloody damn shuai! ahhaa.. Ooo.. *drooling*, *dreaming*.. hee heee.... den i saw his another pic.. the one dat looks like pai-ing MTV. haha.. can u imagine how shuai is it? hah.. can feel my heart beating very fast when i saw it.. keep saying "omg" to myself.. hahaz.. kk.. noe i am a lil crazy.. but.. hee hee.. sometimes.. jus can't help it ma... gorgeous guy! eye candy! hahazzzz.. rite...

haha.. owl asked me whether i wan to go for the sa free xmas concert.. hmm.. tink i will go baHz.. but i am trying to jio pple to go with me.. hahz.. dun wanna go alone u noe.. it will be so err... awkward. hahaha...

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

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MErry Xmas!!!

hEh~ watching water boys now.. haha.. damn cute arh the show! ahhaz.. the tcher din noe she is 8th pregnant~ haha.. tot dat she her stomach is bloated. haha.. nonsense~ but its a nice show i suppose?! hahahz.. yuPz~ did my chem today.. realised i really need to be killed by mr azmi! haha.. left lots and lots of blankz=x haha.. well.. at least i tired la~ hahahz~ lalal.. my mim realised 2 of the bamboos dropped down.. haha~ only managed to find 1.. de other one jus disappeared! haahhaz...

Think about it, if u find yourself being in love with a person, stop and think, are u really in love with him or its jus a mere infactuation?

Infactuation is the liking of a person, whom u cant forget, you will keep tinking of him and U can't slp, eat or tink properly when u did nt see him for one day. Ure mind will always be full of his images, u try hard to noe him, to get his attention, to yearn for his attention.. but when he doesn't give u the attention u wan, u become very sad, u start to doubt yourself, whether he is the one for u. But, its jus a mere infactuation. Sit and tink, is he worth ur time and effort? Is he worth ure attention? If it doesn't, why waste all ure time on him/her?

When u really love someone, u will wan his attention(obviously) but the mutual care bw the both of u is special. He loves u.. and he care for u.. he wun wan u to get hurt. U love him, u care for him, u wun wan him to get hurt. The bond bw the both of u is special and no one can ever understand. This is wad i call love. So, dun ever say u LOVE dat person when u, ureself can't even be sure of ure feelings. Tink properly before u tell someboy " I LOVE YOU".

Love Is ALL aRoUnd!!! ~*cheers*~

haha.. the "passage" above.. is wad i, myself tink. "Love" is a word dat most of the pple use.. but do dey really mean wad dey say. When someone say " I Love U" to u this very minute, but will he love u to the end of time? Will he protect u regardless of wad happen? Will he put u before himself and tink of u no matter wad happen? Tink properly before u say dat u love someone. Dun give an empty promise dat everyone could give to their love ones. Ure special one mite be hurt by this small empty promise dat seems so insignificant to u. It does really matter. Yes, it does.

aye~ went shopping with my jie and gerald(sis's bf).. haha.. suppose to go orchard la.. but when we went dere.. saw how terrible its the car+pple jam.. den went to Hereen.. go up to sakae sushi and saw the terrible Q.. den siao diao liaoz.. haha.. so in de end.. we decided to go to suntec to have sushi!!! yay!!!!! Yum! so long nv have sushi le!! hee.. but Gerald's pda was left on the cabbie? its like omg.. tot he is joking when he say dat.. but its really lost lohs.. its like.. $500++ lohs.. tian arhs.. and its a bday gift frm my jie.. hmm.. tink both of dem also very heart pain? =x den in the end.. i also no mood to eat le... in the end.. i also sian diaoz.. den went to walk around in suntec and i saw CLARA!!! haha.. din noe she is back in sg liaoz! hmm.. bought 6 pairs of socks!!! haha.. siao rite.. but its so nice!! Like all of dem!! hahaha.. yupz yupz.. now i am feeling damn tired le.. haha.. feel like going IMM timl~ aahhaha.. i am crazy le..

haha.. was chatting with him.. found out wad he is working as.. hah.. giving out balloons.. omg.. can u imagine him giving out balloons to lil kids? AWWW.. so cute!! hahaa.. if got a shuai ge give balloon.. omg! hahha.. rite.. i am fa hua ci-ing... haha.. and i was guessing where he is working now.. hmm.. guess everywhere also wrong.. but i tink its IMM.. hahaha.. if I am nt wrong la!! hahaha.. he very cute today.. dunno why.. hahaha.. as always~

rites.. anyway.. went to church this morning... had christmas concert.. haha.. Sun is so cool! love her dance steps and her clothes.. its nice! haha.. and when she shared her testimonial.. nearly cried.. cos its her real life story.. and yupz.. glad dat she actually overcome her depression and go on with a new life. Hmm.. was looking thru the new friends list and i say chu bang's name. I was like.. omg? so shocked? and MR DANIEL KWOK. WO DE TIAN.. he brought his whole family to come lohs!! haha.. was quite shock dat chu bang actually go la.. cos he looks like those.. nt interested dat kind. haha.. but well.. wadever.. still feel quite shocked to see his name la..

heH~ YuPz~ jus came home 1hr ago~ ahhaa.. Finally.. NOEL is finished~ haha.. saw quite alot of pple.. joy, may, gary, han and janice!! hhaa.. din noe Janice is coming~ when i saw her.. i was like.. SO SHOCKED?~ haha.. but anyway~ it was raining like cats and dogs.. like dere is no tml.. heh.. rained the whole day.. and my pants is wet... haha.. cos its too long.. and i got 2 blisters on my feet! its like.. so paiN! hafTa walk around with plasters! haha.. and we sprayed our hair with luminous pink and copper red! haha.. so nice.. only jj members got the previlage! haha.. well.. tink overall the concert is quite ok.. but the f.horns mispitched or something.. first note of the first song. haha.. heng i din flop my solo. ahhaa.. its like 4 bars.. but it meant alot to me. haha.. Den got sax emsemble... hmm.. tink its quite ok la.. the first song is nice.. but the second song sounds weird.. haha.. dunno lehs~ but adrian and alison really really are gd. yEsh.. dey are gd.. gd tone, gd skill, got vibrato! haha~ too bad i din really talk to dem la.. so cannot learn frm dem.. hmm.. tink today is kinda weird.. haha.. cos af actually waved and say hi to me?? hahaa.. I am so shocked.. in the end.. i waved back.. but i din smile~ haha.. so mean.. heh.. hmm..but ok la.. i am very scared of him de.. dunno why.. tink he jus got the look and the "authority" la.. hmm.. but well~ dat time i was trembling when he was sitting beside me.. hahaha.. can't believe it maN~ ahahaa...

hmm.. got back the SAT results and it sucks! really sucks. Maths i got 520/800 which is 49percentile. WTH?! I failed the bloody maths.. for verbal.. i got 380/800 which is 11percentile. Omg! How did i do one arhs.. wo de tian arh! hm.. alrite.. dat wenting.. dunno how he do one? Got 1340/1600 for SAT?! Like wth? his maths is near full marks. Omg! haha.. tian cai.. and a lil bian tai! HAHAHaa..

kk.. tml is NOEL.. hmm.. nt feeling anything.. hhaa.. cos i noe.. it will nt be a memorable one.. its jus gng to be like.. playing as a guest band.. and yupz.. hope i will enjoy myself tml.. or the very least i will do is to play the best.. for the sake of JJC band.. and of cos.. my dearest conductor, Mr Leng. Yupz.. dats all i can say? I mean.. how wld u expect me to like.. do when i dun even have the heart/mood to play on? Its like quite baised of dem to take out pple to play either halves of the concert.. and i realised most.. yes.. MOST of them are frm jj. I mean.. if its so difficult to play with us.. den dun play la.. no big deal abt it man. BIASED!

freaking ass.. my entry for yday is gonE!!! due to the superior invention of internet and apparently.. the whole net crashed yday.. SO evErything gone in 1 sec. *CRY* But anyway... yday i came across someone's blog and found out that she Likes *ahem* and I tiNk hOr.. *ahem* rejected her.. But i can't help but feel a lil jealous or something.. cos its like.. she get to see him everyday.. but me leh??? i can't.. an sometimes.. i dun even get the chance to talk to him.. and aye.. dunno la.. its like.. hmm.. wads the pt of getting jealous anyway.. he wun noe.. i am having a slight crush on this another guy.. and aye.. dunno la.. let God decide my path.

hmm.. anyway.. yupz!! today is the day!!! LORD OF THE RINGS!!! OMG!! its so damn nicee!!!! Hmm.. nice!!! nIce!!! ARAGONE rocks man!!! LoVe him!! the cast.. the plot.. everything.. its so perfect!! *thumbs up* hEh!!! LoVe it man.. tink i am gng to get the whole set of vcd if dere is!!! anyway.. went to eat steamboat with jaslyn, joy and may. the lil thing.. haha.. $6.50.. so cute.. got normal one and the tom yum de.. woo!!! nIce man!!! hee.. shall go eat again if got chance!! haha.. tBp really change alot sia.. haha.. now got sakae.. got ThaiExpress.. hmm.. nt bad la.. haha... come to noe dat JAsLyn got Xin Shang Ren le.. hahaa.. hope she is xingfu man!!! haha.. tink dat guy also like her de la.. haha

Wat is love?

Why hold someone back... when u know u don't love them...
Why keep them to yourself... when u know you won't wanna have them?
Why let them miss other chances...when they can have them?
If you really don't love someone....let them go...hurt them NOW... not later...for a longer relationship builds stronger emotions...

A good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love and two people.

Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.

Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at the same time.That's the reward and that's the risk. Unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved. Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person can ever have.And there's a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. It's the difference between a love that's fickle,wild and short-lived and one that's tender and passionate,nurturing and lasts a long time. The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us,takes work because it's about keeping a relationship.

Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other. Nobody can read anyone else's mind. We always presume that our partner knows what we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop. Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed. Respect him/her for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better. The power of true love to a person is undeniable. A relationship needs commitments too. What is love without commitments from each other anyway? It's like principles and values. Everyone has them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them. The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.

"Love is like an antique vase. It's hard to find, hard to net, but easy to break." Every day everywhere, people fall in love ... but just how many of these relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships which are formed only for the intense! feeling of falling in love? I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words "I love you"... but more often than not, the truth is just I am IN love with you. There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love with you because of the present you. This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts. When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see the heartache of such a relationship... where both were only IN love with each other. But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she loves you and really means it,you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love. It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking. Let your heart guide u. May you be blessed on your soul-searching journey = for your soul mate.

hmm.. went for band again. SIAN haha.. o well.. din noe i was taking sectionals today.. Heh! I reached at 940am.. and I tink Xm and KM nearly killed me cos dey were dere at 845am?! heh.. and Regina sit at the bus stop since 830am cos she had to fetch her sis to sch at RGPS. haha.. Din noe she was dere so early la.. cos we say we are meeting at 930am ma.. haha.. Well well.. i am nt pro enuff to take sectionals actually.. haha.. cos i am nt a very gd so called musician u see. And Adrian was saying most of the stuff b4 i can tink of wad to correct.. but well.. he is the SC anyway.. so let it be loh! HAha.. hE is sucha gd player BUT.. haha.. someone is better though! ahaha

hmm.. was SLACKING for the whole prac yday loh! Dey all taking the 2nd half pieces and so.. Km and I were slacking the whole day... hmm.. waste of time. Hmm.... Went KAP for lunch with XM and Joce.. haa.. poor km have to go back to sch for the farewell briefing! hahaha.. OPps=x Kk.. tml i have to go for band AGAIN! FREAKS!

hmm.. i dunno wad to say today? Got losta things to talk abt.. but i dunno how to write it down. it's like.. band started at 9am today.. BUT when i reach dere.. no one.. YES.. NO ONE was dere yEt! ThE bLoody band room is nt open.. NONE of The HC pplE weRe dere.. ok.. mayBe dere is.. but its like at most 3?! i dunno wad to say loh? No time management.. no nutting.. attitude sucks.. hAiz! Dunno why i had to play in this concert in the first place.. i tot its suppose to be a interesting exchange bw both schs.. but it turn out to be sO goddamn sucky. Waste of my time and stuff... omG.. wHy?!

Mr Leng's temper got worst today.. hE scolded abt lotsa things.. Attendence.. 15 pple were absent.. Tink he was VERY VERY VERY angry.. esp those pple whose reason is being SICK. Hmm.. he got quite scary today la.. dEn he was telling us abt ATTITUDE. YEs.. tell dat to HJC pple man.. think deir attitude sucks big time. Seriously... i tink dey sld go review on deir attitude and stuff. Hmm.. Its Not abt how gd ure reasons are, its how u manage ure time. Leng said dat.. tink he is very pek cek le.. nv see him so angry.. even dat time b4 syf.. he also nt like dat de.. hmm.. den he was asking who dun wan the concert.. i nearly put up my hand.. haha.. was scolding ting.. why he din put up.. if not... i wld had follow suit... haHAa.. haiz.. hmm.. he was actually talking abt lotsa things.. hmm.. scolding frm the leaders to members.. committe members to non-committe members.. hmm.. tink wad he say is quite true la.. The leaders really din make the effort to lead the band well bahz.. i dUnno la.. this is how i feel la.. hmm.. everything like dun care kinda attitude lohz.. dunno la.. hmmz..

haha.. too lazy to type.. so lets have a chop chop one! haha.. Went church in the morning.. so tired now.. but today's msg is gd.. haha.. one funny thing is dat.. my pastor say.. " Window shopping is nt exactly window shopping for women.. its a hinting shopping" hahaha.. quite true hor? hee hee.. yupz.. after dat, we went Cine to see SUN!! haha.. shakes hands with her maN!!! haha.. aiyar.. lotsa pple dun like her.. but well.. will support her cos she rocks!!! So proud of her.. she is doing so much for the church! WAy to go!!! hee.. ok.. the best part comes.. we went SPE for badminton!! hee.. long time nv play le.. but well.. tink my skill nt dat bad la.. =x hehe.. Woo.. met angel's friend.. DAniel.. haha.. tot he is J1.. den he tell me he is frm 02S29.. haha.. well well.. So he is the one who broke his legs dat time.. haha.. i actually asked him dat.. hahha!! tink he quite paiseh also! ahha..

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hmm.. today can say to be a BAD MOOD day.. just like the weather today.. cloudy and raining the whole day.. tink everyone in the band wun feel GOOD at all lohs.. Cos firstly.. we are nt playing in the audi anymore.. but we are gng to play in the bloody small LT3 in HC. like wth? I feel so damn ashamed to play in the Lt.. at least audi is nt so bad. LT!?! OMg? wad will other pple frm other sch tink of us man? Can't the HC teacher i/c at least spare a tot for deir own student.. imagine lohs.. can't stand it man.. and the ticket sales is damn bad... no one wans to come.. but come to tink of it.. dat time when jj and hc had ou own individual concert.. the ticket sales is quite gd.. but now combine.. its like.. BAD?! I dunnO wad to say le.. its like.. if the pple tink the concert is of no purpose.. we sld nt had called up to have a combine concert in the 1st place lohs.. now look at this.. i Am SO aNgrY.

Den Mr Leng was so angry today.. tink i nv see him so angry b4 lohs.. he scold and scold.. tink he nearly cry or something.. lemme remind of mrs chua.. hmm... tink this concert is really gng to suck like hell.. feel like telling all my friends nt to come.. i dun wan to malu myself again.. wad gold band.. attitude is so bad.. i cant say my attitude is veri gd.. but at least i can say dat i am so much better den dEm lohs.. like wth? Tink dey din even have the effort to sell the ticket.. humrp.. somemore jade dey all are ALL NT COMING. NV EVEN SUPPORT ME DE LOHS. LIKE WTH? NearLy bUrst out crying after being scolded by leng.. den read layne's msg.. really can feel the tears welling up in my eyes le.. i dunno why.. but really.. feel disappointed and left out. haiz.. Luckily i still have Joy and may.. two of dem realy stood by me. THanks gEr..

hEh.. Came back frm chalet yday! huRhur.. was sunburnt loh?! Like wTh?! haha.. red like lobster.. hee.. so tired.. and Km+joce+xm blamed me cos dey are more burnt den me?! Cos i took the towel and nv return? but in the 1st place dey said dat dey wanted to wait for Mao to katyak wad? how can blame me?! Keep saying its my fault loh? Ok la.. maybe i am at fault too.. but cant blame the whole thing on me ma? hURmPs! bUt anyway.. i left at 8.. haha.. cos its raining.. and i dun feel like gng down to bbq? and Regina was feeling sick... i mean she is already sick.. losing her voice and stuff.. hmm.. den we went home? tink no one realised till dey wanted to cut the cake dat time? hahaa.. angeL msg me and asked me why i din say bye?! hEe.. sorry?! dEn we went HBF to eat yoshinoya.. haha!!! Heavnely food! wahhaa...

Day 1:hmm.. check in with km and her mum, Regina and joce at 230pm. hee.. was raining heavily.. and i mean HEAVILY. We got so drenched.. yupz.. den was slacking in the room till 3+ den me, joce and Regina left for town? Siao rite? Frm Sentosa go to town. haha.. great invention of North-East line.. ahaha.. den met up with my crescent section mate.. like so long nv see dem le.. all are dere except SM, Eunice, Wanqi and Joanne. hmm.. duno why dey din turn up la.. but Sm got grounded.. haiz.. but anyway.. ate ThaiExpress and Crepes and Cream.. its quite ok la.. but all i can say is I dun feel gd. As in.. I felt kinda left out la.. hmm.. Cos we were split into 7-4. the 7 pple were sitting at the tables behind us.. and Cia and Owl left me to the 4 table. Like wth? Left me dere with Esther, Pris and Jiayi. hmm.. i dunno why la.. but the feeling we shared last time is gone? Maybe dats the reason why i din enjoy. Cos diff sch ma.. like all in SA and AC.. den me JJ.. haiz.. dunno la... Joce was saying cos we are in diff sch.. den we din spend much time tgt le... hmm.. maybe? but well.. still.. its depressing la. But anyway.. went back to chalet.. haha... We made Km+mao+xm+jere+alvin to wait for us at the bus-stop cos its really dark to walk back to the chalet ourselves! haha.. THANK YOU GUYS!!! hAHa.. But its really fun.. slp at 430am.. haha.. playing around.. Alvin was using poker cards to see our love life.. hmm.. its kinda weird cos its so true! Cos i told him to help me see the 2 guys.. and eRps.. the results was kinda shocking but TRUE. oMg. Like.. errr.. can keep me thinking for now.. hahaha.. Poor Alvin.. he had to listen to us girls talk.. hahaa.. talking "dirty".. think he also on the verge of "penging" liaoz and mAo.. dropped the air-con controller while everyone was aslp.. haha.. cos the 3 poor guys were so cold and i tink Alvin and Jere snuggled up to each other?! hahAHa.. tian arhs.. scandalous pair sia.. ahah... but neway.. dat mao ars.. woke everyone up.. but i tink i only woke up 1 sec and i fell back to slp! haha.. but i was "molesting" joce and km thru'out the nite! haha.. cos my hand kept touching them.. like.. hahahaa... better dun say.. so malu-ating.. hEh!!!

Day 2: yupz.. woke up at 830am.. hmm.. i was the lastest to wake up.. hee.. actually dun plan to wake up so early de.. planned to wake up at 11am! but the rest are so noisy!!!! gRr... Wanted to go delifrace for breakfast.. but we went too early and in the end.. mao left for sch and jere left for work. haha.. den we went to the beach den at 10am.. we went for breakfast!!! haha.. but after dat.. we went to the beach again.. went into water.. haha.. dats how i got SUNBURNT. haha.. After dat.. we went to take monorail.. haha.. intened to take 2 rounds.. but during the 2nd round.. it rained so heavily and me+regina+xm+km was stuck on the monorail for 1.5hrs and we took 3 rounds in total. haha.. felt like puking!! yupz.. but later we finally got back to the chalet and all of the j2 came le.. hmm.. hope dey enjoy la.. but got serious miscommunication lohs? like only a few pple noe abt the meeting time and obviously some of the j2 din noe. Like its nt my fault? cos I din even noe anything abt the meeting time and place and blahz?! Yupz.. haha.. hmm.. gng to rain soon.. and haha.. shall go bath and watch tv!!!


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Tml is chalet.. but it seems dat nt a lot of pple is gng lohs?! like WtH?! now Joanne say she is nt gng.. Yus got bbq gng on also.. like.. all kena dua?! Last imin all dun wan to come.. dunno this chalet is for the j2 or j1 loh?! Will be meeting Km at 130pm 1st cos i printed the thing for her.. haha.. i am so nice.. haha.. lalal.. tml got section dinner.. can get to see the others.. miss dem so much.. hmm.. heard dat pris din do very well for the audition.. haiz.. most prob will see her at jj.. -shakes head- haiz.. hope she is able to go dere after Os results is out.. Hmm.. yupz.. so ma fan.. need to get out of sentosa and get back dere alone=x.. eee.. i scared..

Hmm.. i heard dat someone had became a golden monkey?! I look fwd to the change of look.. hope dat i wun faint of shockness ya?! -smiles-

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Hmm.. today was especially high today in irc? hahaa.. dUnno whY? was saying i wan clement.. hAhahaa.. nuts.. must be something dat caused me to become like dat MA.. hahaha.. cos u-noe-whu is coming for the concert.. haHAHa... oh well.. own someone a favour.. haha.. wadever.. TOday's band prac is ok la.. tink my solo sucks?! haha.. too soft.. notes nt in tune.. aye.. must prac le... MUST PLAY LOUDLY! hee!!!

Hmm.. my dad scolding my sis now? Like WTh?! DuNno scold wad.. she working liaoz lohs.. dunno wads his prob.. haiz.. parents.. eeyerrr... Freaky ass.. spoil my day!

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yUPz.. me back to blogging again.. heh.. cos i was slping and watching tv! hee.. cos basically i only slp for 4hrs lohs.. kk.. Yday morning got SAT.. hmm.. the maths section is so EASY! haha.. i tink pri 6 student also can do lohs.. but the eng part hor.. haha.. can go die lohs.. its like i was playing word guessing game lohs.. the compre passage.. din even bother to read.. haha.. cos absolutely no time lohs.. like wth?! But anYway.. its over.. dere's nutting we can do.. actually if i do badly for this SAT.. i wun blame myself lohs.. cos its like.. the eng words hor.. dey noe me.. i dunno dem! haha.. how to do lohs.. really guess all the way le!!! hee... but yUpz. got briefing at LT5 after dat.. abt the end-of-year farewell thingy in sch.. haha.. dumb.. haha.. but Mr Ng was talking abt the "team jjc" shirt.. haha.. like the "TEAM SG" haha.. and he said something like.. "wad team sg.. soccer also lose till like dat" ahaha.. so mean.. but quite true! hahaha.. But i am still tinking whether to go nt.. cos got 4hrs of CIP.. haha.. i tink if dey dun put this.. its like.. no one will go lohs! haha.. oh well.. haha

haa.. den at night... was watching SEA GAMES!!!!! hee.. Joceline Yeo won 2golds ya!!! ahaa.. so proud of her man.. she is my idol!!! Really arhs.. for 5 sea games since she participated.. I really admire her man.. hmm.. i like her tatoo though.. look so cool!! hee.. love her.. whenever i see her getting her own gold medal.. feel like crying for her.. cos its thru her hard work.. and yup! she deserve it! hee.. den at night got Miss WORLD! haha.. think dat china ger is so chio!! wAh!! so tall somemore.. but too bad.. she wasn't crowned Ms World.. but yupz! she managed to get 2nd runner-up placing... after looking at Singapore's contestant.. felt really ashamed?! hAHa.. cos she look like a bimbo or something.. -shakes head- Anyway.. haha.. was switching bw Miss World and Fear Factor... haha.. The part where dey need to place deir head into the cow's blood make me really wanna puke?! its so yucks.. and when dey are done.. dey look so bloody=x Eee.. haha..

Hmmz.. tonight got Star Awards+Sea Games!!!! I tink at this rate arhs.. haha.. i wun be able finish my tutorials in time?! hahaha.. but i will la.. hahah.. or else i will feel so uneasy! hahaa.. *act guai*

+wHen u are feeling happy, tink of me+

To plant a seed and wait is to believe.

This statement is quite meaningful arhs.. heh... yupz.. but some things.. if u wait too long.. sometimes.. the results mite nt be the one u hope for ya? Too sad for tears... was trying hard to fight back tears and had to keep a smiling face in front of my jie.. dun wan her to noe.. itz like.. noe liao also no pt.. haiz.. Was talking to Min.. complaining to her abt wad happened yday.. its like.. tinking abt it.. i sld nt be sad.. but sld be angry rites? Wad Min say also quite true.. since he ignore u.. ignore him back la.. but i tink he dun really care? While i am here worrying abt how he tink and stuff.. think he is having a great time by himself eh? I care for him as a friend.. but does he? Dun tink he did.. in the 1st place.. i had placed too much hope on this budding friendship le.. hmm.. i dunno wad to do.. everything had to be decided after he reply me ya? he is being such an edert. hUrmps..

VicknEss! JocE! cAn u see ure face?! hAhaha

A Very Broken Heart Bleeding.

I dunno wad to say.. or rather how to say it.. Hmm.. I msg him in msn.. but he nv reply? thOugh he in away.. maybe it symbolises the end of the friendship bahz. Mmx.. how nice. its exactly 12mths since i like him. Well.. i dunno wad to say ya? friEndship Vs LOVE. I can only choose one. Grr.. i prefer Friendship den. Cos it will nv end. But look at it now.. Stupid me. Shouldn't had told him dat rite. -shakes head- END OF FRIENDSHIP.

Well.. my fever recovered!!(yay!) hee.. but my running nose became quite serious.. aiyohs.. damn! hee.. shall nt use this word now. hurhur.. Doing the SAT ex.. got 4/10! hahaa.. like wth? failing it lohs.. haha.. cmi arh cmi..

haha.. today my flu got worst.. got fever!! gRr.. its 37.5.. dAmn.. have to recover b4 next week.. or else my mom wun let me go for the chalet... hee.. den lotsa pple will kill me.. Emily wun be gng for the chalet.. hmm... Yus will be gng for the second day.. but nt staying overnite.. den Joanne will be gng for second day too.. hope it turns out fun yeah?! hee..




To Him:
Maybe U wun talk to me again cos u are feeling VERY awkward now.. but I had decided to bury ure images deep down in my heart. U are in a very special place.. U wun noe how much it hurts during the times I tried to forget abt u.. but i noe.. its time i will make my stand and I will move ahead with life. Even if i see U...

YUpz.. was sick... sore throat+running nose+a lil cough.. hope it will get better by tml.. hmm.. cos need to study for SAT.. and if i cont to slp n slp.. tink i gng to flunk it.. heh.. sian.. haven start any work. shall start on my GP tml.. cos need to hand in by 6th.. but heard frm Jing dat its by 10th.. dunno la.. MS YAp so slack. when hand in also the same de rite? heee.. naughty naughty.. but dun care??? i Dun careeee...

Hmm.. dIn nOe Eileen Yeo is in SYO now.. din noe she is so pro.. haaha.. well.. nt really close with her.. cos tink he suck! hahaha.. SHHHHH.. hee..


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YuPz.. will be leaving the hse in 1.5hrs time.. meeting joce+ting+siyi to get the steamboat food. yUpyupz.. my sore throat is quite bad.. as in.. tink i got throat infection or something.. de whole throat seems so red and swollen.. but luckily i haven lose my voice.. or maybe after the steamboat dinner.. i will.. Haha.. yUz.. maybE i will blog again tonitE.. hee.. gng to bath now.. or else i will be late! hHehE..

yEah.. reached home 1.5hrs ago frm Joce's hse.. decided to take a cabbie back cos the bus stop looks VERY scary.. hahaa.. YuPz.. thanks Joce.. hhaa.. tink we din really make her hse go upside now... but ya.. its kinda messy.. haha.. and now KM sld be with her cos she is staying over at joce's hse ma.. haha... AYe.. JiaMao's pressie.. haha. the most ma fan one.. haha. cos still need to use the glue to stick it.. hahaha.. ayEs.. well.. had a nice day.. haha.. And i din noe Wenting can play the piano.. hahaa.. paiseh?! hahaha..

Quite sad today.. felt as though my heart is being ripped apart.. its bleeding.. Wish i could die.. -shakes head- dun ask me wad.. tink only joce noe.. haiz.. Sld nt had the glimpse of hope rites.. hAiz.. dAmn.. hoPe he wun suspect anything.. nt dat i wad lar.. but jus hope everything will be fine.. yah.. FINE..

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